Always Lost

Lost in the legacy of dreams
The monster reunites with my soul
Will he ever go away
Or will I just sit here
Rot in a hole
Lost in a land of fantasy
Hoping to hide, run away
Lost in the past of tears and scars
Remaining here as a ghost
Run away from pride, it doesn't help to have it
Run away from the past, it destroys what it owns
Rotting in my sleep
Always waking in the middle of the night
My pleasure so meek
My mind so shattered like a broken glass bottle
Will the images ever cease
Or will the cannons keep up their fire
I remain lost the agony of my life
The worthless past I grew up with
A crybaby in the mirror
And a soldier of the fear
Eyes dry, never cry again
Lost in my memories of that broken old place
Forgotten by the raptors who continue to seek out their next prey
Lost in a hopeless world
I'm just trying to get by
All the suffering remains
Thought I washed it down the sink
Thought it was gone, but it likes the game tag
The sadistic personality chases me till I wake
Rotting in my dreams
I'm like a dead animal
I'm free from the house of slaughter
But only when awake
Whenever I sleep the dreams always take place
Always running from that distant land
Always hoping to forget their plans
But it resides in the back of my slumbering mind
In the pit of my white heart
My soul has shattered a thousand times over
And over again
Lost in a sea of distant agony
Always locked away in my mind
Always that fragile little boy
Trapped by my menacing thoughts